Thursday, October 8, 2015

Reflection 6 / first high school visit

Two great experiences excited me about teaching this week. 

1.  I coach a first lego league each week for 10 9-14 year olds. Despite the fact that we have 3 coaches, some weeks managing those kids is just plain rough. As the semester has gone on, I've tried to apply the things we are learning in class to my weekly meetings with these kids.  Through doing things like always calling the kids by name, supporting their (sometimes outlandish) ideas, and using proximity, we've seen a large improvement in the kids behavior and productivity. Having this weekly practice time has really helped me to solidify some of these teaching techniques, and I'm excited to continue. 

2. I observed Lindsey McMurdie today, and had a fabulous experience. I don't know if I enjoyed this observation so much because I love her subjects, or because she's the first female teacher I've observed, but either way, I loved it. She gave both me and Matt excellent advice on being a new teacher, working with administration, and she shared with us her curriculum. She reassured me that you don't have to know everything about every program to be a good teacher. This visit made me super excited about my career. 

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Reflection 5

This week's reflection is a bit of a jumbled mess, but that's kind of how my thoughts were this week, so I decided it was an accurate reflection of what happened.

Capture: When visiting schools this week, I noticed that of the three teachers I've seen, none of them seemed extremely passionate.

Analyze: Okay, not gonna lie. This discouraged me.  It kind of sent me into a panic. Given that I'm almost a junior, it's about time that I had an identity crisis, so I wasn't terribly surprised when it happened.

Its just that, as of late, I've rekindled my love for some old hobbies of mine, and I've been reminded of not only my skill in these areas, but how passionate I am about them. Now logically, I know that I don't want to pursue a career in any of these areas, so switching my major doesn't make sense. Just after feeling that fire, and then seeing the lack of passion from the teachers I've observed, and knowing my own limitations, I've wondered, "Can I be as passionate about technology as I need to be in order to impact lives?"

This question has been spinning circles in my head for a couple of weeks now, and watching these other teachers teach has really made me ponder if I am in the right place. And its not just about me and my personal fulfillment, but I noticed that as teachers lacked enthusiasm, so did their students. I don't want a classroom of apathy.

Action:
After a long talk with my best friend and personal reflection here's what I've come up with:

I love teaching. I know I love teaching. And I know, with practice, I have the potential to be a really good teacher. My sphere of influence is completely up to me. The subject I teach doesn't really matter. Technology, Math, English, Underwater Basket Weaving, it doesn't matter. I never decided to go into teaching because I excel at one subject over another. I chose teaching because I want to be on the front lines in helping youth.

My passion isn't a subject. My passion is people.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Junior High Observation 2

Observations today:
General observations 
- I liked that all of the computers were on one side of the classroom, with tables on the other side. 
- sooo many phones and head phones out. Jr high has changed since I was there
Observations from talking to Mr. Alder
- You still have to be a jack of all trades, pick which areas you want to emphasize in because you can't be an expert in all of them.
- don't reinvent the wheel, utilize your resources. 
- There is no fair way around it. A lot of grading is subjective. 

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Reflection 4.

Today was my first experience in observing a junior high classroom. All of the things I had expected to see were there. Students, computers, machines, inspirational quotes on the walls, smart phones out on desks, enthusiasm for learning, etc. Just as I imagined, I really enjoyed being there, mingling with the kids as they went about their work. There was one thing though, that really caught me off guard.
It happened while I was assisting a group. James, one of the students, made some racist, off-hand comment about Mexicans. At first, I wasn't sure that I had caught the comment in context, so I didn't say anything... But as the next moments went by, and the comments persisted, I realized that my ears had not deceived me, and that his comments were actually really hurtful, especially considering that one of his group members was half Mexican. I forgot about this part of junior high.
I've reflected on this moment over and over the entire day. I've replayed what was said, by all of the kids in the group, what I said to try to stand up for the little 1/2 Mexican boy, what I didn't say, what I should have said. When I am a teacher, I will have a zero tolerance policy for racist comments and all other types of put downs. Now, in this situation, the teacher didn't know what happened, and I'm not assuming things about him, but in my classroom, from day one it will be known that my classroom is a place of respect for all people.
This is not the lesson I expected to get from my observation today, but its what happened, and I'm stickin to it!

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Relfection 3


Teaching has always attracted me as a career. Growing up, I was blessed many times to have teachers who were absolutely outstanding. You know the type that push you, validate you, and make you feel empowered? Well, they were littered throughout my school experience. Their influence played a large roll in many of the decisions I made as a youth, and I am grateful for their examples.

People often ask me why I want to teach junior high specifically, and that is a valid question. Here is the answer: The students are impressionable, and I know, given the chance, I could leave a good impression.

I could site a lot of different experiences, and reasons to illustrate this, but here is what it comes down to. Junior high is an extremely important time when it comes to decision making. If I were to look back at all of my friends and the paths they chose for their lives, almost every time, I can pin point when they began that road to junior high.

That statement is true of my friends who turned to substance abuse, to the guy covered in tattoos, to my friends who had babies out of wedlock, and to my stalwart friends  all equally.  I'm not saying that people can't or won't change, or that everyone decides their lives in junior high, but most everyone I knew, including myself did.

Throw important life decisions in with acne, sports practice, bubbling hormones, family or societal problems,  mountains of homework, peer pressure, drugs, and more hormonal imbalances and what do you get? Chaos.

Talk about the key time to have the greatest impact! Good, moral teachers are crucial to every stage, but especially in junior high, and I want to be there to help with it all.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Reflection 2

Capture: Last week, when we received our first teaching assignments, I immediately got right to work. The following Tuesday seemed like a decade away as I finalized my plans, and I couldn't wait to blow my first assignment out of the water.  Verdict: Tuesday came, and lets just say, my lesson wasn't the hit I had hoped for.

Analyze: A few things stuck out to me in this process.

1.  Prepare, prepare, prepare! I should know this about myself by now, if I don't feel 100% ready before I present something, I usually get nervous and flop on my face. For some reason, I was under the impression that I had out grown this tendency, but Tuesday assured me that my weakness is alive and well.  Sure, I had spent a while on my lesson the week before, and then briefly went through it the night before, but given my track record, I should have known that if I was to really do a good job, I should have simply just put in more time and rehearsed it several more times.  Now, I recognize that there were some good points, but overall, the lesson had way more potential than I let it achieve.

2. Usually, when I find myself in these situations, I enter whirl pool of self pity and anger. Why didn't I prepare more? I feel like an idiot. I hate not being good at anything. I'm usually so comfortable in front of people, what's wrong with me? Why do I always feel like I'm at the bottom of the class?  Reading this, I know it sounds incredibly stupid, and as I type this, I realize that kind of attitude is unwarranted and just plain ridiculous. However, it is the reality most times when I come out of a situation feeling less than competent.  Here's what surprised me Tuesday though: As I sat down after my lesson, I knew that I really hadn't done a great job, or even a good job, and watching some of the other students do so so well usually would have discouraged me further..... I sat in my seat and waited for the feelings of idiocy to settle in... This is the weird thing though, they didn't come! In fact, the longer I sat there, the more motivated I felt. I watched person after person nail the assignment, and I thought to myself, I can see myself doing that. You know, of all the aspects of this major, I feel like my most potential is in my teaching abilities. I know what to do better for next time. 

Critique/Action: As dumb as it may sound, this experience reassured me of the good things to come. At least the mistakes I made in my teaching are fixable. My "action" this time is to take feedback I was given (proximity, more interaction with the students, show why your topic is important, etc) and apply it to my next teaching opportunity. I'm actually kind of excited.

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Reflection 1



Capture:  This week in class, the ideology was presented that if a kid doesn't like broccoli, the solution isn't to give the kid more broccoli, or get mad at the kid for not eating the broccoli, but simply to disguise the broccoli.

Dip it in cheese, pour vinegar over it, serve it in a casserole. Simply change the context. Over time, the child will likely acquire a liking for broccoli without realizing changing process he is experiencing.

Analyze: This same philosophy can be applied to a class room. I can't count the number of times I personally have exclaimed "ewwww" when introduced to intimidating subject matter. Many times I have sat on the edge of my seat, ready to declare mutiny if the new concepts weren't presented clearly. Such was the case with Algebra and Chemistry. In those instances, I was being fed straight broccloli. And I detested every painful second.

Vastly different from my experiences with Algebra and Chemistry was my experience with reading. As a child I resisted reading quite defiantly. Reading was difficult. Reading was boring. Reading was something I could learn to do when I was older. Reading was my broccoli.

Enter in my cheese, my first grade teacher, Mrs. Walton.

Mrs. Walton must have sensed apprehension on the part of the entire class, for she made it her personal mission to instill a love of reading within us. For example, each student had a personal copy of the book, "My Father's Dragon." This small chapter book recounts the story of a young boy who goes on many unlikely adventures. Mrs. Walton used the excitement of these adventures to disguise the fact that page by page, we were learning how to read.

For instance, at one point in the book, the main character has to cross a crocodile-infested river. He searches through his backpack and discovers several lollipops and rubber bands. Using those tools, he attaches a lollipop to the tail of each crocodile. While the crocodiles are busy licking the lollipops attached to the tails of those beside them, the boy simply walks on top of their backs across the river.

We could have just read this humorous experience and called it a day. However, Mrs. Walton's dedication to really disguise our learning process ran deeper than just reading the words. To bring the story to life, she had each of us lie in a line across the classroom floor and attach a lollipop to the shoes of the neighbor directly in front of us. We stayed there, on our bellies, licking each other's lollipops for a quite a while as she read aloud to us.

Experiences like this changed what I had originally thought about reading. No longer was it just difficult, boring, and needless, but it was an adventure, escape, and enjoyable past time. With my personal broccoli adequately disguised, I never looked back.

Critique/Action: As I pursue my teaching career, I hope I will be one to not just encourage facts and deadlines, but one who will be able to instill a passion for learning. I think disguising my "broccoli with cheese" will have less to do with subject matter, and more to do with the environment. For example, I want my classroom to have engaging lesson plans, an "you can ask any question" kind of mindset, and curriculum that challenges students without making them feel incompetent.